My hand was held so I wouldn’t be lost.
But somewhere in the holding,
something else got lost.
The grip got too tight, started to hurt
“You are imagining it” is what I was told
I held my silence carefully
Knowing I’d be called thankless and dumb
May be that’s why I didn’t even notice
When the hell did my hand go numb
Didn’t realize I was disconnected from a part of my body
until I tried to move it.
But If I keep pretending it doesn’t hurt,
I will completely lose it.
And I’ll be left grieving not just the hand,
but what it could have built and how.
I’m not trying to break the grip
but I do need my hand back now.
